Chocolate Malt Melt-Down

Weight: 165

What did I just do?!  What DID I JUST DO!?  I feel like I have sabotaged myself beyond salvation.  During lunch, I thought to myself: "I think a chocolate shake would be nice."  In the past, I have never been able to finish a chocolate shake, so I figured that I would buy one and maybe eat half of it and let the rest of it melt into the trash.

I went to the drive thru and ordered a chocolate malt and proceeded to drink it on my way back to the office.  I didn't realize that the consistency of a malt is a lot thinner than that of a shake!  I could actually DRINK it through the straw.  By the end of my 10 minute drive back, I had already finished 90% of the malt. 

Just now I looked up the calories of the offending item and am horrified to learn that it has a total of 910 calories!  F*CK!  I'm screwed...  How am I going to lose weight in time for my Hawaii trip?  I think I need to strap the baby to my back and go hike a few miles to redeem myself.

Sex and Food

Weight: 164lb.

Yesterday I was so mad at my husband, I went to get McDonalds.  I went, thinking I would pick up a Filet-o-Fish.  But when I saw that one tiny fish burger would cost $3, I went for 20 pc McNuggets for $5.  Mind you, this was after I already ate a lunch of fried rice. 

What can I say?  I felt rejected and unloved.  I wanted something to make me feel instantly better.  Sadly, that something turned out to be food.  Still, it's better than finding comfort in the arms of someone else right?

Sometimes, I wonder if there's such a thing as a sex diet?  Instead of finding pleasure and comfort in chocolate or other fatty foods.  I should try making out with my husband more.  "Want a bite of chocolate?  Nah, just give me a nibble of my Honey."  Hahaha!  They do say that chocolate has the same hormones and chemicals as an orgasm right?

O, and FYI... I felt guilty about eating the nuggets, so I just ate a small bowl of cereal for dinner. 

More Fruit please!

Pound: 163.8

So I got on the scale today, and my weight had dropped.  Ok... I admit this could be water weight.  But I'd like to think it was something more than just water.  My fancy scale tells my water weight in addition to body fat percentage... and neither of those fluctuated much.

So what have I done differently?  Well... I ate less food.  Also, to help fight the munchies at work, I brought three oranges to work with me everyday.  I'm a software engineer.  It means that my job is one where I try to solve problems with the most elegant solution.  It can get stressful. 

I'm sure that oranges are NOT the lowest calorie fruit I could snack on.  But I figure that the water content and the high fiber content must be good for me.  Like most people, getting enough water in a day is something I need to work on.  I've tried snacking on apples, but they are not juicy enough and usually leave me with a stomach ache.  (Yes, I snack on so many apples, that I literally poop apples...  Sorry if that's TMI?)

breakfast

microwaved bean thread noodle+bamboo shoot+ chili sauce+ajinomoto and a waffle cookie thing.

Day???

It is only the 10th, and I am not surprised to say that I have failed.  If the lack of posts was any evidence, I have not been able to stick to any sort of diet at all.  It's just too hard!  I mean... seriously... the lack of time and energy...   *sigh*  I am ashamed of myself. 

Ok, I'm going to go pack myself a lunch for tomorrow.  Hopefully it will be fairly healthy.

Lactation Diet Day 2

Weight: 167

Breakfast: Skillet Egg and Brown Rice + Microwaved Yam
It was a pretty good breakfast!  Very flavorful... that must've been because of the olive oil and salt. I just threw an egg and left over brown rice in the omelet pan and it was ready in no time.  It was a big yam so I brought the rest of it to work to snack on throughout the day.

Lunch: Peruvian stir fried spaghetti + Chicken Soup
It was a coworker's birthday, so we went out for lunch.  It was good, I finished it all... and I have no idea where that dish rates on the health scale. (It'd be sad if I paid for a lunch that I didn't find tasty. )

Dinner: Steamed Shitaki Mushrooms with Thyme,  Bok-Choy+Chinese Sausage fried brown rice
It was a good dinner!  Once more I just threw stuff into the pot and stirred.  One pot wonders, you know?  But a few hours after dinner, both my husband and I were doubled over with gas.  I wonder if there was too much fiber in our meal?  Or maybe it was the expired, dried apricots we ate before dinner?  All I know is that I was in pain for 2 hours.  It made taking care of the baby difficult.

Lacation Diet: Day-1

Weight: 167lb.

Breakfast: Oatmeal, fermented tofu, bean sprouts, baco-bits, chinese pickles, 1 egg.
It tasted depressing.  I mixed it all up in a cereal bowl and sprinkled baco-bits on the top.  I hoped that it would taste like jook (chinese rice porridge).  But it was too thick and paste like.  Next time I will take a picture of it so you get an idea of what I'm doing.

Lunch: Oxtail Stew
There wasn't enough of the stew.  I was still hungry.  Maybe it was because of the lack of chewing action?  I had brought an apple to work to snack on.  I finished the apple pretty quickly and still had the desire to eat.  Ultimately I ended up snacking on the chocolate that someone had brought in for the new years.  With each piece of chocolate I ate, I thought about how I was killing my diet.  Then near the end of the day I munched on some crackers.  I think I need to bring more healthy snacks to work.  Or maybe bring more food?

Dinner: Pork Spareribs + Brown Rice + Microwaved Cabbage
By the time I arrived home with the baby, there was no energy left to cook.  Good thing my husband is skilled enough to toss the defrosted ribs in some soy sauce and throw it into the oven.  By the time I finished feeding the baby, our dinner was ready.  Yea, it was a pretty pathetic looking dinner, but I think it covered the basic food groups right?

Change of plans - Lactation Diet

Today my 7-mo old baby had an allergic reaction to something she ate.  She broke out in hives and vomited.  I felt so bad for her.  She cried and had to be held to sleep.  Even in her sleep she kept crying and whimpering.  So this means I can't be so eager to move her off of breastfeeding and onto solids.  (She hasn't even really taken a liking to solids either.  But I can't blame her... baby food doesn't taste very good.)  In addition to this last, heartbreaking event, she has also been EXTREMELY hungry before bed.  She just wants more milk I guess?

So this is why I'm moving onto a lactation diet.  Hopefully this diet will help increase my milk supply while still allowing me to lose weight.

1.  Drink lots of water.
2.  Eat lots of oatmeal, and avoid refined carbs (white bread, white rice, noodles)
3.  Eat lean protein, but not too much fish (although I REALLY love fish)
4.  Lots of fruit and vegetables.

I just hope I have enough time to prepare the food to follow such a diet.  I have a feeling that I will be relying on the microwave a lot in the next few weeks.  =)